How did I sleep on Euphoria Mourning? I knew the breakout single—“Can’t Change Me”—and video very well, but didn’t realize that had been all the way back in 1999. Was that really 18 years ago. WTH. I loved that song. I still do. And I didn’t hear about what happened to Chris Cornell until weeks afterwards because for the most part, I’m off of social media, I don’t read the paper, and I don’t watch the news or read it online. So I was just googling Brandon Boyd because he’s so hot, you know? And I see a video on Youtube where Incubus is doing a tribute to Chris Cornell and playing “Black Hole Sun,” and I was like, “Huh.” So I googled Chris Cornell and that’s how I found out. And then I listened to Euphoria Mourning—the entire album—on Youtube, and I was like, “DAMN, this is beyond dope. How did I sleep on this?” And so of course I downloaded it immediately and now I can’t stop listening to it because it’s just gut-wrenching and real and powerful and soulful and transcendental and damn, it’s hard to find artists that I connect with like that. I was a big Audioslave fan—I devoured their debut record and saw them at Lollapalooza in 2003 with Incubus and Jane’s Addiction. And as for Chris Cornell, he’s immortal. IMMORTAL. I keep thinking of his family, and my heart breaks. But I think they know that he’s good, so my heart is lighter again and I smile. Because they know.
Damn. Do you remember his brief appearances in the 1992 movie Singles? I saw this picture from the set and Chris is a damn god, man. Like, he’s sitting next to Matt Dillon and Matt just seems okay-looking. He was that kind of fine. Like, pick-your-jaw-up-off-the-floor fine. Just, the whole package. Flawless and god-like.
Okay, I’m back. So. Some days later, I got an email from my publishing company telling me that my two author copies were in the mail, and sure enough, I got them that very day. It was so exciting. I mean, that’s like two years of blood and sweat and so much frustration and now I’m holding it in my hands and it’s real. Are there still a few issues with the manuscript? Of course. But overall it’s not bad for a debut, especially considering what it looked like in previous proof versions. I definitely recommend using a publishing services company, but do the research—and choose a local company if you can. There were times I really needed to sit down and talk with someone face to face about my project, and that just wasn’t possible with them being headquartered several states away. So I learned that local would have better served my purposes. I live. I learn.
I walked downstairs holding the paperback in one hand and the hard cover in the other like a twenty-first century Moses holding two tiny tablets of the Ten Commandments. No wayward Israelites, though. Just my mom and my sister, my niece and my nephew. But they were excited for me and I was just really chill about it but so, so stoked.
Silicon Valley Girl’s official promotion and marketing campaign is set for September, but my book is actually available for purchase right now—in print and as an e-book—and I created an author page on Amazon. If you buy it and you love it, then spread the word.
My blog will soon have a new, updated look, and I’ll be making updates with upcoming events, like book signings and my official book launch, contests, giveaways, and merchandise. Blah, blah, blah.
And also? Euphoria Mourning. On repeat.